Remember that one night when the T-Swift album had just come out and your parents bought it and both of us were like, oh em gee we have to listen to it, all of it, right this very second!! ? And then we sat in my giant bed and actually did that?? And then talked about all the most secret of things and then decided that we were going to be roommates together at BYU? That night is so vivid in my memory because--and try not to be weirded out by this--but later that night when I said my prayers, I remember specifically saying, Thank you for letting Rachel move here, and that she decided to be friends with me. I feel so so blessed.
One of the saddest things about going on a mission is that I won't be able to have those long talks in the middle of the night with you, and I hate that I'm missing out on so many semesters with you and that I'll be going my last semesters without you. I can't tell you how much those talks mean to me. Because Rachie, no one else is down for staying awake until ungodly hours like you are. ;)
I just want to you to know how very important you are. You have an extremely important role in my life and I never want you to feel like I don't need you, because I can promise you, I do. I still don't really know why you chose to be friends with me but I can't tell you how grateful I am that you did.
I don't know if you realize, Rachel--I feel more comfortable with you than anyone else. Before you came along, I couldn't be completely myself around anyone outside of my family, even my good friends. You of all people know that I'm really bad at telling people things, but you make me feel so loved and okay with myself that I can tell you things I can't tell anyone else.
You have always shown me that you accept me completely as I am, and I never feel like I have to impress you or measure up to any expectations in order to keep your friendship. That means more to me than I can express and I want you to know how grateful I am that you love me wholly and unconditionally.
You have so much more potential than you think, you know. You have the uniquest of thoughts and ideas in that head of yours so please don't be afraid to let them be known. You know how to relate to people on a deep level and that will get you so far. Just believe that you can do it, and you will. You are going to knock everyone's socks off--I just know it. :) By the way, don't worry about making friends. Just think about all the real, lasting friendships you've made in your lifetime and know that it'll happen without you even realizing it.
You're the best friend I've ever had and when I leave on my mission I'll probably cry over you like I've just had the worst break-up of my life. But on like, a ten-billion-gajillion-times bigger scale. Okay bad analogy, but... you know what I mean. ;) What am I going to do when someone says something and it's not even funny but for some reason it is and I don't have you to laugh with me about it and then laugh even more about the fact that we're laughing at something not worth laughing about?? Hahaha. I'm going to miss you more than words can say, Rachie-poo. Always remember that I love ya, no. matter. what.
All the love in the world,
The biggest sugarache-fan there is
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